Depressed
Once I was at the den, I immediately started to chain smoke cigars, the pain was unbearable. The marijuana was making me slightly calmer, but the pain and depression I was feeling, the marijuana wasn’t helping but very little. I’m at a loss I don’t know what to do. I wished Tom and Sue were close, maybe he could help me, the way I had helped him. But he is 2 counties away, and I couldn’t even think about making such a long trip. That’s when I remembered the laced marijuana, I have never wanted to use that shit. I just remember the havoc that Samuel, and Maverick made, while they were on this same laced marijuana. But will I feel better if I do smoke a cigar or 2? I know it’s different than the purple smoke marijuana. I open the secret hiding spot, I’m afraid what I might do! I had another regular cigar, before deciding to smoke a laced PCP Cigar. My head was all messed up now. But now I didn’t care the way I felt, I would go outside and every deer, rabbit or squirrel possum I see I would kill it. I got pleasure out of killing, and just leaving the dead body lying on the ground. The pain was there but the thrill of the kill, made me have a little enjoyment. I’m thinking after this killing spree about Bud! I need to calm done. I must get control of myself, I’m all that Bud, Lucille and Dottie have now. They will need their big brother; to teach them all they need to know to survive.
That evening, I smoked a few cigars to try to calm down. I was calmer but mad as hell, and very depressed I must get through this. I must be there for, Bud Lucille and Dottie. They need more than ever. After a sleepless night I go outside and what the fuck do I hear. Damn hounds they are over towards Maverick’s and Luna’s. I should go help. But I can’t even help myself right now I’m so depressed.
I go back to my secret hiding spot, I grabbed 2 cigars. I smoked one and had one to take with me. Off across the road I go, no care in the world. The dogs are chasing Maverick, I don’t see Luna anywhere. No other dogs I hear, so I think she is safe, but I’m angry as shit, I head towards Maverick and the hounds. I have heard them bay him twice, but he continues running. He has covered 5 miles of mountainous territory now; the dogs have caught him again. He went up the tree this time, he will be killed if I don’t help him. I go to the tree there a huge pack of dogs. It looks like someone new, is hunting in this territory today. I don’t recognize any of these dogs. I walk to the tree with no care in this world. The dogs turn their attention on me. I have 13 dogs right on top of me, trying to pull me apart. Will I survive this vicious attack. I smack 1 dog his lifeless body goes down the hill 40 feet. The attack continues as I kill one dog after another. I’m bleeding all over from the attack but I don’t feel it. There are only 3 dogs left, they turned to run I chased them down and didn’t leave a dog alive. Maverick comes up to me after that, and said thanks. I yell at him you damn coward, learn to fight your own damn fights. I can’t even think about fighting my fight, much less yours. If it not for this marijuana, the hunters would have been here shortly to kill you. Now get your cowedly ass back to your den. I can’t keep saving your fucking ass. Maverick could tell that I wasn’t right, but he had no idea why.
I see Luna coming, and she also told me thanks, I yelled at her in rage, Maverick is no boar bear, he will end up getting killed, and you also and maybe Susan and Heather. Luna said what the fuck wrong with you Benajmin, I know you are hurting, but why the fuck you so mean to us. It’s like you have been smoking laced marijuana. Well LUNA, you have never lost your damn mom, maybe I am smoking laced marijuana. What the fuck you want to do about it. Luna said, she had heard of all the animals, that I had killed, and it was like Samuel and Maverick on the loose again! I stated y’all both lucky, I don’t kill both of you right now! Luna said if you have ever cared for me, please just go back to your den. Smoke some regular marijuana to try to calm yourself. I want you to know, I have always looked at you as you as a superhero. Today I don’t see this, I see you as a villain. Although I do owe you a thank you for saving Maverick. I told Luna, I was sorry but I’ve been in so much pain. I will go and try to smoke some regular marijuana, but I make you no promises. I’m all over the place, I don’t know what I may do the next second!
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