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Don't Let Go
by Karla Martinez




Like a princess, one day Samantha is awakened with a kiss from her crush, Cameron. Someone dreamy and gorgeous which, of course, can’t be any good for her. Samantha finds herself torn by her painful fate when she finds out she doesn’t have long to live. The reality of every moment she spends with Cameron is that her heart races and her life shortens. This painful truth brings her closer to Cameron’s best friend, Yael, a nice guy who hides a big secret. It’s a secret that turns Samantha’s short life into chaos: to choose friendship over love, or to choose life over death.



Proloque
August 20, 2010

Prologue 

August 20, 2010 

 

 “Cameron, where are you going?” she asked as he quietly made his way out the room. He stopped at the sound of her voice, making him hesitate for a quick second. Her eyes were already finding an answer in his sweet tortured face, an answer he wouldn’t admit to, for her own good.

“I’m going for a ride,” he answered after some thought.

She knew the only thing she could do was smile and let h...



Boring Life
February 7, 2009

February 9, 2008

"Hey, Sam!" the two of them greeted as I got closer to the building. 

"Hi," I answered back, trying my best to keep my calm, especially in front of him. Cameron Derwood, my weakness. The hottest guy I ever knew. My heart fluttered just to see him leaning against the railing, arms crossed as he glanced past me. 

Seeing Cameron first thing in the morning was the strength that pushed me through the not-so-graceful mornings. School was never fun f...



First Signal

One more reason to hate school was because of those never-ending classes I had to endure. They were a punishment to all of us spoiled brats that loved to have free time. Serving up to its good name, and prestigious reputation, Horizon High was mostly a way for parents to get their rotten good for nothing children out of their houses. The system was great. They kept everyone in check and bored to death. Strict enough overall, but when it came to the staff, they had to make a better effort. Mr. Gailes was ...



Awakening

The room was left empty in minutes. Slowly I got up and turned to find Cameron silently analyzing the pen I had lent him. Immediately raising his gaze at me, he caused my heart to accelerate a little too much. My chest tightened up in a new way, in a slightly scary way. There was a sudden mystery, something building up in Cameron's eyes, which was always possible. He was that type of guy, use people for entertainment. I held his gaze; being weak was not something I would allow myself to be in front of hi...



Aftermath

As grateful as I was to God for giving me the opportunity to experience my long overdue first kiss. More importantly with the boy I liked. I would have appreciated even more, if it had been a day that I didn't have to face him semi-naked in P.E class. Thank God. I thought sarcastically.

Sharing classes with Cameron also included gym which I hated even more. Not because of them but because there was another group I didn't like. As expected; now that winter was gone, we started swimming lessons for t...



Heart Struggles

Can we go to the other side? I don't want to deal with Aubrey right now." I begged Tanya. She glanced in their direction and sighed.

Tanya didn't like Cameron and even more Aubrey. I couldn't blame her. They could get on people nerves. Anyone with common sense, common goals, people like Tanya, she didn't think about their high status. That I loved about her. She rolled her eyes as we started to walk towards the opposite side of the pool.

"If you don't feel well, just tell Mr. C," Tanya sugge...



Agony

Sam, why are you so tired?" Tanya asked concerned to see how worked up I was getting.

I never really thought about how out of shape I was. Anything that had to do with working out, I never actually did. My parents thought it was never necessary since I always had a thin figure and was a vegetarian so being overweight was never an issue. But now I was learning that having a thin body didn't mean I was in good shape. Every time I tried to go for a run, my mom stopped me and talked about how skinny I...



First Impression

When I was fourteen I fell in love, so much in love that it hurt.

So, in love that the sky was clear and sunny, even when it wasn't. So, in love that, I went to sleep and woke up with a bright smile. So much in love that it was painful, so painful that it made my chest tight. Feeling like dying, but I couldn't. Because if I die, I wouldn't have this love. I wouldn't feel this love. The love, that brought tears to my eyes, and butterflies in my stomach. The love that, woke me up from a ...



Waking Up

Samantha, Samantha..." Barb shook her head with disappointment. I said nothing and just let her do her job.

"Didn't I tell you last time? Stop being so irresponsible with your health, child." she hissed in a disapproval motherly tone.

In a way, she was. Barbara Hartman was my nurse since I little. I knew better than to oppose her. Her daring green eyes and bold wine lipstick was intimidating at any age. after my incident in the pool. I woke up to Barbara's angry eyes. I knew I was in trouble...



Nightmare

 I was afraid of knowing, of finding out the reason of a torturous pain. And this time God finally decided to agree with me. To let me know, but I would have chosen to a better way than this. I took a deep breath and held onto Yael. He smiled with compassion and tried his best not to hurt my already fragile skin.

"Thanks," I whispered to him, I was getting used to his calming scent, Yael was so different from Cameron, Angel and way more different than Miles. He was a gentleman hiding behind a ...



Reality

After a few hours of more checkup, I stopped fighting Barbara and let her do her job. I was too drain to fight for what was killing me in the first place. Yael took Rocky home, she needed as much rest as I did. They cried with me, Yael held me and calmly explain to Barbara the reason I had taken the IV out. I was floating in the air, my body was flying in space, without anywhere to land. My ears were hearing their voices, but I wasn't listening. I was trying to convince myself that wanting to die was the...



Hits

Taking a deep breath to keep myself calm and in controlled. I pushed the doorbell of Rocky's house. Trying to forget the sad atmosphere at breakfast. My parents and their tortured faces. It felt awful for not noticing so much struggle before, thank God, Aubrey was still the same. I wasn't willing to change that. I wanted to feel normal, and what better way to do it, than keeping my annoying sister treating me like I wasn't sick, like I wasn't dying.

The door opened with Yael behind it. My eyes did ...



Eye Opening

Convincing Rocky to keep my condition a secret wasn't as difficult as I thought. Thanks to everyone that looked my way and whispered, wondering why I fainted, and making assumptions. Rocky felt bad enough and agreed to keep the secret. Everybody knew me as Aubrey's little sister, but other than that, I was unknown to the whole school, or just didn't matter to society and it was better that way.

"Look, Sam, I can't stand it. I think about it and I can't understand." she stopped just a few feet from ...



Tensions

First class was the usual torture. This time we spent all morning talking about The Charge of the Light Brigade by Lord Alfred Tennyson. It was a great poem, except for the fact that all of them were about death, loss, and grief. Seriously, was this how God was letting me know that I had to accept my fate? Looked like it to me. And so on the first block of the morning went smoothly. Trying to catch up on my missed day, I manage to ignore the stupid question. Miles comments and unnecessary emotions.



Confessions

The sun was bright, it hurt my eyes. The wind was still cold because it was the begging of March, but not too cold to freeze me to death. At lunchtime, most of the cafeteria and the halls were empty from students. One of the privileges we had at Horizon High was that. The students had the freedom to leave the school area for lunch, something most of the Juniors and Senior did because they had cars.

Rarely Cameron and his group would stay in school grounds. Usually, they spent their lunch breaks at ...



Feelings

Seating next to Rocky; breathing in the cool air of March. I sighed trying to stay calm. As time passed, the pain was more real every day. Even though I had to come clean with my feelings. If one day I wouldn't wake up anymore, I didn't want to leave behind any mix feelings with anyone, especially Rocky. She was the sister Aubrey never was for me. The supporter I needed most of the time, although sometimes I just needed someone less aggressive and less thoughtful. Someone like Tanya. That was the reason ...



Confrontations

Giving up on torturing myself with ideas and things I couldn't control. Locking myself in my room, turning off my phone. Losing connection with everyone, to focus on myself. On what I was feeling, on putting my heart at peace before I could kill myself with everything going on around me. I couldn't help but feel like someone out there was working against me. Everything and everyone started to hit me at once. It felt like Cameron had woken me up from a dream and brought me to this reality where I couldn't...



Courage

Letting my mind free and sing to "Savin' Me" From Nickelback. Mimi kept licking my face, she could sense my struggle and for what I was going through she was my best company. There was so much in my mind. Rocky, Aubrey, Yael, Cameron and my questionable future. How long did I have to live? the real reason I was pretending not to know wasn't because of my parent.

In reality, I was afraid. Admitting that meant that I had to talk to Dr. Jackson; meant that I would find out how long exactly I had left....



Chances

Samantha Collins?" Cameron asked fighting a smile that melted my heart.

I knew better than him that I couldn't be sexy or girly. I was just a girl that didn't like skirts or dresses. The best I could do and try with was a pair of leather jeans and a white tank top. I knew it wasn't girly enough for the likes of Tanya, Rocky or Aubrey. I was never going to get close to their level, but it was better that way. I was no competition, I had to find my own way to see me, and not the girls he dated.

<...



Realization

I had to really work on keeping my heartbeat normal, although Cameron standing next to me wasn't helping at all. While we waited in line for a movie, I was secretly trying a few breathing exercises. Looking around, people had been staring at us since we entered the theater. Maybe because the whole town knew Cameron Derwood. The playboy. They probably wondered if I was the next girl. If he had brought all his girls to the same place, of course, they would know what was going on. It was Cameron after all. ...



Opportunity

The movie ended and though I tried to keep my mind out of what Rocky said. Of course, Cameron was not the kind of person that would let a girl win just a simple bet. After the movie, he let me decide what I wanted to do next. Wondering if this was the same routine with all the girls, I walked next to him but keeping my distance. Walking around the park, without saying anything at all. Just enjoying the sun falling down behind the apartment complex across the street. Walking down the hill, closer to the l...



Evil Prince

Cameron was slowly sending me back into that dream. The dream my life was before I found out anything. A fantasy that I didn't want to wake up from. Deep inside this wasn't just about Cameron, this was about the fear of going into the unknown blindsided. The fear of having new feelings, new needs to live, something that could give me the courage and bravery to fight.

I was afraid of waking up something strong that wouldn't let me accept my end. It wasn't my choice, my fate had already been decided ...



Friendship

Hating to have to go back home and explain why was looking so shitty, I walked around the park. Trying to make sense out of an old guy sitting on a bench looking up the sky for hours. It was way after dark. The stars were bright in the clear sky. Cameron had left a few minutes after I walked away. I needed time to calm down, to settle my overworked heart. To breath normally and think.

Think of the many chances I could have had if I hadn't overheard Dr. Jackson's conversation. I could still be livin...



Moving On

Sunday was a perfect day. I could sleep all day and no one would really mind, especially my parents. Just with Mimi's company, trying to forget how I ended up falling in love with such a jerk. I couldn't stop one or two tears at the memory of his arms, his temperature, the places he touched. It made my soul trembled to remember the so vivid night. If I had let him continue, either I would have woken up in a hospital or dead already. I hugged Mimi tightly trying not to cry anymore. Cameron was just my fri...



Restart

Do I look weird?" I asked Tanya feeling everybody's staring in my direction. My hair had changed, but makeup wasn't allowed in our school, well not that the girls cared. The uniform did look better, in the morning that I put it on. I didn't think I would attract too much attention or if people noticed me enough to care, but apparently, since my incident in the pool, I did gather some popularity. To Aubrey's misfortune.

"You're not weird, you're cute." Tanya praised me proudly of her work.

Fo...



Opening Up

Quietly walking behind the new counselor, I noticed the resembles he had with Cameron. Although his hair was shorter and neater, they had the same posture when they walked. There was only one reason for me to talk to a psychologist, one good reason. Someone to help me cope with the truth if my parents ever decided to tell me anything. I needed to be prepared for whenever that time come. I sighed exhaustedly. Pretending was exhausting. Pretend not to know my life was fading right in my hands, that I was h...



Behind the Mask

Checking my new schedule, the only change I had was physical education. Now instead of it was Nutrition or Cooking. One good thing out of this was that I wouldn't get to see Aubrey all over Cameron while she wore a swimsuit. There was always a good side to everything. I smiled thanking God. I got it. I said in my mind. I got the message.

The bell rang for second class. I didn't feel like going to Geometry where I had to seat beside Cameron, again. I took my time going back to the clas...



Low Hit

My cooking class felt refreshing and calm as I walked in. Mrs. Torres, my cooking teacher looked very motherly like. She handed me a book of recipes and sent me back to the last row. I sighed in relief, I didn't have to be seated in the middle where I could be in the middle of everybody's conversation. I could feel my new classmate's stares, curious stares. I didn't mind though, it was better than being tortured by my regular classmates. My heart could finally calm down.

Taking a seat next to my ne...



I Don't Need You

Time kept moving. Slowly I got back to my normal rhythm. Cameron and I didn't share a word if not necessary. In a way, I kept my distance from everyone, even Rocky. Yael was the only one I needed, not because he was my regular ride for my "check-ups" but because it turned out that I was more comfortable with him than with anyone else. He knew me and, in a way, that made me feel comfortable. I didn't have to keep secret from him and he cared for me for who I was. Although there were hints of pity, I ignor...



Confident

Are you okay? You look kind of pale." Yael asked I hadn't said a word the whole trip to the hospital. Luckily, he carried a bandana with him, but now it was socked with blood.

"I'm okay." I lied but truth was that my heart kept strangely pounding, after the loss of blood my head felt hollow.

I didn't think I'd die from it though, but it sure felt like it. Putting a hand over my heart. Cameron came to my mind, I didn't want to lose him, even if it meant me being in pain, at least I wanted to ...



Promise

It was a Saturday and apparently, Doctor Jackson had his days off which was kind of surprising to me. I had never had checkups with other doctors. I actually thought he never left the hospital, ever. But now I was being examined by Doctor Smith. A young man with gentle hazel eyes. Almost like my dad's. A very handsome face, but tired. Worn out by the stress and the sleepless nights.

"I see you're not happy to be here." Dr. Smith commented while examining my pulse and checking my heart.

He wai...



Relief

Samantha, honey, come eat!" my mom shouted in a very sweet voice, while I was spending a Sunday at home with Mimi and her watching her favorite tv show. Friends.

"Thanks," I said, placing my plate on the table. Looking at my mom's plate, I noticed, it wasn't just about my health. My mom had chosen to be a life coach, a naturalist. I wondered if it was because of me, to keep all of us healthier.

Since I was very young, Dr. Jackson ordered me to eat vegetables; back then, it was difficult to u...



Actions

I stopped right at the entrance of Rubi's; from the outside, I could see Cameron and Aubrey working on something. I was kind of surprised to find out that Cameron could even take something serious as to tutor someone. Though he looked serious, Aubrey was just flirting with him; I could see it from far. Way to go sister. I rolled my eyes. While Angel, Miles, and Yael sat at the bar having an entertaining conversation with Angel's dad. I caught sight of Tanya and Rocky sitting in our fav...



My Turn

Aren't you in the middle of something?" I asked, for once my voice sounded normal when I talked to him. He gave my sister a quick glance, and then back to me.

"I'm taking a break." he breathed out the words, reaching out for a strawberry from Rocky's plate.

My eyes followed his every movement. He relaxed in the booth. His honey eyes gazing directly at me, making me a little self-conscious. Every time I thought I knew the real Cameron, he turned out to be someone so strange. So mysterious tha...



Outcome

Samantha Collins, are you out of your mind?! Why are you going along with his bullshit!" Tanya shouted angrily. It was refreshing to see Tanya hate Cameron so much when he was very polite towards her. He knew she didn't like him, she made it very clear and he respected that, in reality, it looked like he enjoyed it. It was probably refreshing for him to have one girl not all over him.

"Tanya, shut up!" I whispered. She glared at me with very angry eyes. I raised my hands.

"Just calm down, an...



Motives

Before getting in Cooking Class I did a quick run to Mike's office. Not only I ended up as Cameron's partner. He wasn't serious about what I said at the restaurant, and if it was like that. I needed all the information I could get, and that I knew he wouldn't give away. The bet was on and I was not planning on losing to him to feed his pride.

"So, you need help because you want to win the bet, or because you want to know the real Cameron?" Mike asked some type of malicious satisfaction played in hi...



Executioner

The day was ending, the sun was almost setting. My heart once again was struggling to keep its pace. My ears burning with heated embarrassment, I was debating whether to take my shirt off of just leave it on. Trying my best to keep my heart rate at a normal was difficult with Cameron's intense eyes glaring right at me. Burning my skin slowly with a hidden desire.

"Can't you go outside, like everybody else?" I asked fighting with my stuttering voice. It was clear he was enjoying my reaction, he alwa...



My Choice

With the Spring Dance closing by, my mom was the enthusiastic one. Dazzling because I was going. She picked me up after school to get some dress shopping done; of course, I took my two consultants along. Though things were kind of uncomfortable with Rocky, I figured we had to work things out at any moment. After all, we had more in common that I thought.

"Isn't it awesome! You girls are going to the dance!" Mom chanted while I ran through the radio stations to find a good song.

"Though, it wo...



Closeness

The Spring Dance was in full motion, it was hard to believe but I was excited at this point. Tanya, Rocky and I decided to get ready at Rocky's house. First helping her into her spaghetti strapless dress. After finishing straightening her long waves. Rocky looked nothing like her usual self, she had this fierce and powerful look. It was obvious she was going for J. Lo's look. In a way, it worked.

Tanya looked like a model from a prom dress magazine with her tiny body and her big hazel eyes shining ...



Gift

Boys Like Girls was taking over in the background, the dance floor was filled with crazy dancers. I could also see the teachers in charge, their eyes wandering to make sure everything was running smoothly. Looking at my surroundings my eyes finally caught sight of Miles and Angel. Soon Ivonne holding hands with Angel came into view. Feeling kind of surprised to see Angel holding hands with a girl, maybe she's the next one, I thought she was done, but maybe not.

The whole time I have k...



Face Off

The night was going great, nothing of what I actually expected. We danced, we took pictures, we sang along, we laughed and enjoyed so much. Trying to keep my heart in a balance rate, I took a minute to relax; I had managed to walk by myself with heels, it wasn't that bad actually, it just needed some getting used to. There was no way I was going to be dragging Yael around to keep me balanced all night. The throb in my toes was yelling at me to stop or to just take my heels off, but I didn't want to ruin ...



Crossing Lines

The night was going great, nothing of what I actually expected. We danced, we took pictures, we sang along, we laughed and enjoyed so much. Trying to keep my heart in a balance rate, I took a minute to relax; I had managed to walk by myself with heels, it wasn't that bad actually, it just needed some getting used to, there was no way I was going to be dragging Yael around to keep me balance all night long. I could feel the next day I was going to be in pain, though. The throb in my toes was yelling at me...



Spring Break

Samantha, get the hell up!" Aubrey shouted after a loud bang behind my door. Her hysteric voice made Mimi bark loudly. The dance was over, my feet were killing me, but Spring Break had just begun and I knew, I wouldn't get to rest.

After I got home from the dance, I had to wait until morning for Aubrey to come home to give her the news that I didn't feel like going to her trip anymore. To my surprise for the first time in my life, Aubrey begged me to do something for her. Trying to find a good exc...



Life Wonders

While pretending to be asleep, at some point I did. When I opened my eyes again, we were already parking at the beach house or beach mansion rather. It was incredible to open my eyes to the view of a bright blue ocean. The surface glittered with the bright sun on top, white sand spreading all over. The air felt salty and wet. As the waves crashed on shore the wind would bring in the air a little spray of water that made it feel kind of cool. I knew for a fact that everybody in Horizon High was very rich ...



Stop Fighting

For once I found myself enjoying my time with Amy and Ivonne. They weren't as vain as I thought they were. Actually, Ivonne was very shy when it came to romance. She was in love with Angel. Genuinely in love and that was a surprise. Amy was more like a party rocker, the perfect friend for my sister. They were fun to be with when Aubrey wasn't around. Although that was rarely the case.

Yael as expected, he was up for having and giving me a good time. We spent a full day walking next to the water, si...



Doubts

What's wrong?" Cameron asked, his arms still around my waist.

His chin resting on my head. We stayed in silent, sinking into the perfect moment. My stomach couldn't settle down, it was incredibly magical to feel his covering me with his body. I felt secure in his arms. The moment was so perfect it felt dangerous.

"So, you like me..." he commented nonchalantly.

"But what about Yael?" he continued and as soon as his name slipped his lips, my heart squeezed. I love ...



Guard Up

Depression was as bad as my heart disease. My eyes hurt from crying so much, my face hurt from trying to play hero. Half of my body was numbed to a point I was concern about it. But what was I expecting? I couldn't be playing with my life anymore. I shouldn't. I was killing myself without considering that it wasn't only me dying. The tears kept coming out as I realized what I'd done.

This disease was killing my family as well. My parents and doctor's Jackson effort ...



Hopeful

Spring Break was over in a blink of an eye, the bruise on my face was almost gone, and my heart was at its regular rate or so it seemed. Nothing to worry or think about. Just spending time with my parents, and Mimi. It was relaxing and what I needed. It was how was I meant to spend my last days of life. Although there was still something I had to make clear with Rocky. Maybe I was just pretending not to realize, or I was just afraid to know the truth.

To know that she was also ly...



Hurt

Getting late to class was not comfortable for anyone, especially the first day after Spring Break. Not that the teachers would say anything, they knew I was "Special". But, having everybody staring as soon as the door opened was what made me nervous. Handing in my excuse to Ms. DeMarco, she nodded, handing me a copy of her classwork. Quickly I moved to my regular seat.

"Okay, take your seat. Cameron, let Samantha see the notes, please." Ms. DeMarco asked of Cameron. Just my luck. Tryi...



Worries

It feels like a long time since we don't come here," Tanya commented, slurping on her strawberry smoothie. I drank my apple juice. Rocky glanced at me, she was holding in her questions, then turned to Tanya.

"Yeah, it's like lately, we've become a little strange to each other," Rocky added in an accusatory tone. Tanya turned to her, her eyes a little confused.

"What's wrong with you? You've been grumpy all day, are you in your days?" Tanya asked rolling her beautiful eyes at Rocky, I giggled...



His Demons

Finally, I could let all my frustration out. Mike listened to my story carefully, from the sushi rolls to the nights in the hospital, everything Doctor Jackson told me. Michael was like my dairy. I never talked that much, but with him, I had to do all the talking. He would only nod and sighed when needed.

"Your life is an adventure... Even when, you know..." he commented trying not to sound depressing. I smiled feeling relieved to talk and not worry about what he would say.

"Poor, Cameron, so...



Pleads

My once in a lifetime love begun and ended on the same day, instantly. Shaded by the lies of an obsessed sister. The scars and insecurities of his painful past. He just gave up. We both did, but I was determined to at least make it like it was before we got screwed up. It didn't matter how much I wanted to imagine or think about how Cameron felt, there was no way to takes his place and compared miseries.

Spending the whole night remembering all the little things that made me change my mind about hi...



One More Time

My once in a lifetime love begun and ended in the same day, instantly. The happiest moment of my painful life was overshadowed by lies and the scars of his painful past. Cameron gave up. We both did, but I was determined to at least make it like it was before we got screwed up. It didn't matter how much I wanted to imagine or think about how Cameron felt, there was no way to takes his place and compared miseries.

Recalling the moments where he had the opportunity to take advantage of me, but he nev...



Facing the Past

School was a torture the whole day. The gossip about Yael's fight with Cameron ended up giving Cameron a three-day suspension. Though I didn't mention a word, I did want to know the details, but I didn't want to keep bothering Yael when I knew who was responsible for the mess and he needed time to heal his wounds and his heart.

Finally, the last class ended for the day, I walked out. Knowing that Yael wouldn't want to talk about him, I had to think for myself of a place where he could be. I needed ...



Breaking Free

I was over the moon knowing that we were finally falling into place. Every minute I spent with Cameron went so fast, but to get to that point whereI could see him, time was slow. I was finally in dreamland with my prince and the love of my short life. There was nothing that could overshadow my happiness at this point. Expect, you have to tell him.

Every day I had to repeat myself about my honesty. Yael's silent glares felt heavy. After making up with Cameron, Yael and I went to normal...



Strength

I can't imagine a Cameron like you describe it," Tanya said her voice not covering the surprise it caused her to hear everything that had been happening between Cameron and I. While shopping and having some girl time with my best friends, finally everything was going with the flow. Though, in the back of my mind, I was still uncomfortable to talk freely about my relationship with someone my best friend liked. Though Rocky still had a discomforting feeling in her, maybe because Cameron and Yael hadn't fi...



Fears

Dragged by Tanya's curiosity. She drove all the way to the Derwood Auto Shop, which she wanted to do only for one reason. Miles. Cameron and I were just the excuse she needed. With a wide grin on her face forgetting the sad moments, we sang along to Britney Spears Womanizer. It was funny and fun to do something refreshing and stress-free. It was evident that I had to think of the outcome of my surgery, but I also had to think of how or a way to finally let Cameron know. That was the hardest part of it.



Guilt

The perfect feeling of being in love and being loved back to me was an amazing miracle, but to Cameron, it didn't feel perfect at all. I could see it, and it felt heavy on me too. His silence said more than he did, and though I wanted to know, and comfort him. I knew that he wasn't a guy that would let anyone see him weak. I had to patiently wait until he was ready to talk about his encounter with his father. After all, I had something to meditate to bring up to him as well.

We stopped in front of ...



Trash

As always. My weekly routine started with a regular visit to Doctor Jackson's office. Spending the first three hours of my day doing X- rays, letting the nurses take the last drops of blood out of me. It hurt when I was little, but now I almost didn't feel anything anymore. Really, if my illness wasn't killing me, all the waste of blood, the pain and stress were doing a good job.

Doctor Jackson kept explaining to me about the surgery I would be taking. To my surprise, he already had a date. He was ...



His Love

The pain on my face was nothing compared to the painful disappointment killing me deep inside. It was at times like this, that I hated how weak I was. If I were a normal girl with a healthy heart, I would be running the hallways to get to Aubrey but instead, I was just dragging my feet because I knew that if I tried even a little, I was going to be done for good. Stopping a few times to gasp for air. I reached the Infirmary before I collapse and make a scene. Thank God, everyone was still in class and I ...



The Beginning

Why are you so quiet?" Cameron asked while walking me home, in the end everybody found out that Cameron and I were going out. Though I was happy, I couldn't show it when part of my face was stiff by the fury of Aubrey, and the last conversation with Yael. Cameron's best friend had left me in a blank page. I shook my head to focused only on Cameron.

"Did your sister say anything, or hurt you?" Cameron asked when he didn't get an answer out of me.

"No, we just talked and stuff, everything is o...



Regret

I woke up in a hospital bed again. This time it looked more serious, I needed help to breathe and thanks to a ventilator, I could. Multiple IVs on both my arms; the nasty smell of medicine, chlorine, and rubber from the gloves was making me nauseous. The painful sting of the IV needles had my wrists numb and a little swollen. My skin was so pale, my veins were bluish and visible. The pain in my chest was gone, though. The air was slowly going to my lungs, but the taste of blood was still in my mouth. It ...



Ending Soon

I woke up in a hospital bed again. This time it looked more serious, I needed help to breathe and thanks to a ventilator, I could. Multiple IVs on both my arms; the nasty smell of medicine, chlorine, and rubber from the gloves was making me nauseous. The painful sting of the IV needles had my wrists numb and a little swollen. My skin was so pale, my veins were bluish and visible. The pain in my chest was gone, though. The air was slowly going to my lungs, but the taste of blood was still in my mouth. It ...



My Love

Hey," Cameron greeted softly, making my heart jump with joy. But it hurt.

It was painful and sweet at the same time. Just seeing him cautiously standing at the door. His face, his perfect face looking sad and tired. He almost looked sick. I wanted to hug him, to feel his arms around me, to reassure him that I was fine, that even when I looked scary; I was fine, but I wasn't and I couldn't say that.

"Hi..." my voice trembled to see his intense eyes looking at me like I was still the prettiest...



Our Future

I knew that God could see the good and bad in people and that he had his ways of punishing the bad, I hoped that God saw the good in Cameron and let him be happy. Even if it wasn't with me, even if he was crying now. I wanted God to grant my wish and make him forget me if I lose my battle, to make of me just a memory and move on to a happy and better future. After all I took everything he put in my way without complains. This was the time to ask for a miracle.

While securing Cameron in my worn-out ...



Ready to Fight

Are you ready?" mom asked while drying my hair after a quick shower. She had been crying, I could see it in her bluish eyes. A hint of redness was trying to hide behind. I pretended not to notice, I knew she wanted it that way.

"Yeah, where's Cameron?" I asked, the blood rushing to my face when I remembered our last conversation of the night before. Strange that he wasn't there when I opened my eyes in the morning.

"Oh, that boy. He left pretty early. He said, he's going to do something urge...



Last Wish

The operating room was white and surrounded by machines. All types of monitors, cameras, and light, a lot of light, all on top of the operating table where my body was going to be laid down. There were more nurses walking around preparing the equipment. It felt nerve wrecking. Doctor Smith gave me a pat on the head, as Barbara was personally treating my body for all the needles that were going to be torturing me in the ride. Her eyes looked gentle, holding back the tears.

Everything was ready, I la...



Hope

  SIX HOURS LATER

Cameron's POV

Doctor Jackson walked out of the operating room. Just by the look on his face, I knew there was no good news. My heart felt a heavy punch, but I had to keep the light of hope on. No matter what.

"Jackson!" Mrs. Collins jumped to her feet as soon as she caught sight of the Doc. 

Everybody did the same, rushing to him, his eyes showed nothing but struggle. I wanted to be the first one to r...




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