A couple weeks had passed since the horrifying Halloween party. I hadn’t seen the girl again. I didn’t even know her name. I was equal parts disappointed and relieved. My body wanted to find her, especially late at night. It insisted on replaying what had happened in the bathroom. It was exciting, if you know what I mean. 

It was also humiliating. The boys at school talked about sex a lot. I think most were lying about their experiences. How could they do so much? Where did they le...